Though I poured my love out to you,
I'm looked upon as a stranger.
Each time I see you,
I try so hard to hold back my tears
as I repressed my feelings towards you.
I see no sense in revealing
how I feel towards you
as you boldly expressed your disinterest
towards me.
I try to erase those hurtful words
from my mind,
but the memories of the confrontation
hinders me deeply.
Though we are friends,
I can't help but continue to fall
in love with you secretly.
I listened to your stories
of the liaisons you have,
but deeply it tears me apart.
I wish I can try to kill
this igniting love I feel for you,
but how can I do that?
I dare not share
how I feel towards you with anyone
for the fear of shame and disgrace.
I often wish
that you may have a change of heart
and love me back
but I don't know what destiny beholds.
Maybe if I avoid you
may bring an end to my feelings for you
as they wither away.
I want a guarantee
in whatever choice I make in sorrow.
Time is very sluggish
in revealing what the future brings.
I know you may not love me in days to come
but all I can do is hope in secrecy.
My heart aches
from the longing thirst
it holds unquenched.
What must I do to make you love me?
Maybe life will be kind to me
as I can erase you from the depths of my mind.
Only time will tell
though I continue
to cry
all alone
in the darkness
as I hold on
to hope's feet.
Poem made by Psychboy 2001
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